showboat

(song)

it may seem cliche
but i think i'm great
i climb trees well into my twenties
i have a healthy obsession with bees
i aspire to be grand in a meaningful way
to build a vocabulary with words like anathema and vitiate
i eat cereal out of cups
i read dawkins and millay
i may prefer to go dancing
but i understand when you say
not tonight, my love, not tonight
i can almost hold a handstand, i can almost do the splits
i can list a hundred hot keys
and don't care if you watch pornography

so when you say you don't love me, why isn't it harder to understand?
why do i feel like it doesn't matter i'm a great girlfriend?

because i can be pensive and brood
my expositions can come out crude
because i can forget how to relax
and i make you scratch my back

but mostly i won't try to breach your heart's moat
to knock on your door and beg and showboat
because you can't choose who you love and who you don't